Madsen, Robert E

my dearest bob, i miss you more now than ever. who would've thought i'd still be here at the beginning of 2010 thinking such lonely thoughts. i remember when i got the call to hurry to the zen hospice, the time was nearing for your departure. it was such a surreal time. i can't imagine how you'd look now, all these years later. you always were so preppy adorable, and the life of any party. i loved you so much. i still do. i hope we see each other again. -- love, steve

HAPPY 55th BIRTHDAY BOB. gone 19 years now, frozen in time. you're still the funniest most fun guy i've known. love, steve

19 years since you passed on, you're still missed and thought of every day. love you.

HAPPY #56 TODAY. MARCH 19, 1955. gone but not forgotten, still loved very much.

once again, here for a visit. you're gone but definitely not forgotten, it's the 20th anniversary of your passing. love you.

A Happy Birthday to you. You're in my thoughts and my memories of our time together remain wonderfully intact.

FOOL IF YOU THINK IT'S OVER by Chris Rea A dying flame, you're free again Who could love and do that to you All dressed in black, he won't be coming back Save your tears, you've got years and years The pains of seventeen's Unreal they're only dreams Save your crying for the day Fool if you think it's over 'Cos you said goodbye Fool if you think it's over I'll tell you why New born eyes always cry with pain At the first look at the morning sun You're a fool if you think it's over It's just begun Miss teenage dream, such a tragic scene he knocked your crown and ran away First wound of pride and how you cried and cried But save your tears you've got years and years Fool if you think it's over 'Cos you said goodbye Fool if you think it's over I'll tell you why New born eyes always cry with pain At the first look at the morning sun You're a fool if you think it's over It's just begun I'll buy your first good wine We'll have a real good time Save your crying for the day That may not come but anyone Who had to pay would laugh at you and say Fool if you think it's over 'Cos you said goodbye Fool if you think it's over I'll tell you why

HI BOB, It's your 58th birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. Many memories with you and much love for you still.

it's a beautiful Saturday in San Francisco. the kind of day when you and I would go to Dolores Park and get some sun. I remember Roberta Flack and Donny Hathaway singing THE CLOSER I GET TO YOU on our boom box. it was a beautiful time. thank you and I miss you. 5-4-13

22 years. every day. thoughts of you every day. so many wonderful memories. i don't want them to fade. 22 years is a long time. i'm still here and so is your spirit. xxoo-steve

Geeeeez, another year has gone by. You'd be 59 today, and probably not very happy about that. No worries, you're frozen in time at 36. Still think about you everyday. Love never dies.

Hi Bob, I'm sure you know, Rod McKuen died yesterday. I still have STANYAN STREET AND OTHER SORROWS which you gave me for our first Christmas 1977. Wish you were here, still. I treasure our memories together. I'm still in touch with your family!

This year you would've been 60 years old. I didn't forget it, I remembered you on your birthday, and thought about you throughout the day. Miss you.

Hi Love, Here it is September 21, 2015. Yep, 24 years since you moved on. Yesterday was very emotional. Looking at our photos and listening to our music. I'm glad to have these beautiful memories we made. None have been greater than time spent with you.

Happy 61st birthday to you. 61, yet I see a young man, frozen in time. Loved and missed everyday.

wow, you'd be 62 today. Thoughts of you everyday as I drive in San Francisco past places that we would frequent. Still in my heart, forever. XXOO

Steven, you are a lovely soul.

Fool (If You Think It's Over) - Chris Rea A dying flame, you're free again Who could love and do that to you All dressed in black, he won't be coming back Save your tears, you've got years and years The pains of seventeen's Unreal they're only dreams Save your crying for the day Fool if you think it's over 'Cos you said goodbye Fool if you think it's over I'll tell you why New born eyes always cry with pain At the first look at the morning sun You're a fool if you think it's over It's just begun Miss teenage dream, such a tragic scene he knocked your crown and ran away First wound of pride and how you cried and cried But save your tears you've got years and years Fool if you think it's over 'Cos you said goodbye Fool if you think it's over I'll tell you why New born eyes always cry with pain At the first look at the morning sun You're a fool if you think it's over It's just begun I'll buy your first good wine We'll have a real good time Save your crying for the day That may not come but anyone Who had to pay would laugh at you and say Fool if you think it's over 'Cos you said goodbye Fool if you think it's over I'll tell you why thinking of you and this, our song.

40 years ago August 1977 we met. I knew almost immediately that you were a very special man. How crazy at that time that I had decided to move away to Key West before I met you, purchased my plane ticket and would be leaving SF the end of September. I remember as the time to depart approached, I felt like I was leaving the best thing I had ever found. That was you. You dropped me off at SFO, we both cried. My plane departed as I made a spectacle of myself with tears flowing. I wrote you a letter on the music console menu explaining how deeply I felt for you. I landed in Atlanta and transferred to the flight to Miami. I went to the airport lounge and had a drink or 3. I called you, you said please come back, please. I said will you pick me up, you cried and said hell yes. I wish you were here. I'm meeting Theresa and Kimberly for dinner tonight. Incredible, huh! Much love, steve

Happened upon Robert's obituary randomly. He was obviously dearly beloved and cherished. Steven, you are in my prayers.

I went to see the remake of A STAR IS BORN last night. I went with my Significant man. I don't like to use Significant other. We've been seeing each other for over two years. I know you must be smiling. As I watched the film, I couldn't help but think back to 1977 when we went to see the Barbra Streisand version. I love the remake, but the Streisand version still remains in my heart. I still think of you so very often and the wonderful love we had. Missing you.

Hi Bob, it's been awhile since my last visit. It's thanksgiving 2019. I think of the thanksgivings we had together with our friends, so many years ago and what fun they were. The crazy laughter, the loving hugs and love shared by all. It's never really been the same. I'm still in my wonderful relationship going on 5 years. He's back in Kansas with his family for this holiday. We spend Christmas together. You're never out of my mind and heart. We had a great love, I miss you. xxoo steve

HAPPY 65TH BIRTHDAY BOB. SO MUCH SHIT GOING ON, A NEW VIRUS ATTACKING MILLIONS OF PEOPLE, IT'S CALLED CORONAVIRUS. WE ARE QUARANTINED, IT'S SO SCARY. IT FEELS MUCH LIKE THE AIDS PANDEMIC, FEAR AND TERROR. ALSO, I'M NO LONGER IN MY RELATIONSHIP WHICH IS VERY SAD. A VERY PAINFUL BREAKUP. ANY, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU EVERY DAY. XXOO STEVE

It's August 10, 2020. We're in the middle of a pandemic. A virus called covid 19. We're in a social distancing phase and we have to wear masks on our faces to prevent contagion. I am no longer with the boyfriend I had mentioned earlier. It was a sad breakup, I still feel the pain. Almost five years worth. Everybody has either passed away or moved out of SF because they can't afford it. It's very lonely because there is nothing social happening out of fear. I'm staying as safe as I can be, but one has to eat!! You've been gone 29 years but it seems like longer than that. I still listen to all of our old favorite songs. Much love, -steve

Hi Bob, Been a long time. we're in the throws of a pandemic again. Covid. I was going through some of our pictures and just wanted to say I still miss you and think of you every day. I wish you were here to hold and love and talk to. I'm now approaching 70 years old. So hard to believe. I love you. --steve

Today marks 30 years since your death. You are in my thoughts and heart every single day. You are missed.

Good morning on this day before your sixty seventh birthday. You died 31 years ago at the age of 36. I think of you every single day and what you'd be like at this age. You were one of the best and brightest of men. I'm about to turn 70 in less than a month. Surreal. Much love, steve

I know it's been a long time. we're in the midst of 2 epidemics. Covid in it's various faces, and MonkeyPox. So far I've had neither. Today I felt your presence as I read that one of your absolute favorite singers passed away. Olivia Newton John, I cried when I heard the news. Not just the loss of her, but another flood of our memories came back. It's been a lonely 3 years in a self imposed sort of isolation. I'm seventy now and feel it. Arthritis is attacking my body, though not enough to keep me down yet. I will always miss you, and still think of you every single day. Love Steve

Hi Bob, I think about you so often with love. Your birthday just passed and I played our music most of the day. You would have been 68. Happy Heavenly birthday to you. I'm turning 71 in a couple of weeks. I can only imagine what our lives would be like with you here. I'm thankful for my good health at this time. I know you watch over me. Much love to you. s.

The summer had inhaled and held its breath too long The winter looked the same, as if it never had gone And through an open window where no curtain hung I saw you I saw you Comin' back to me One begins to read between the pages of a look The shape of sleepy music, and suddenly you're hooked Through the rain upon the trees, the kisses on the run I saw you I saw you Comin' back to me You came to stay and live my way Scatter my love like leaves in the wind You always say you won't go away But I know what it always has been It always has been A transparent dream beneath an occasional sigh Most of the time I just let it go by Now I wish it hadn't begun I saw you, yes, I saw you Comin' back to me Strolling the hills overlooking the shore I realized I've been there before The shadow in the mist could have been anyone I saw you I saw you Comin' back to me Small things like reasons are put in a jar Whatever happened to wishes wished upon a star? Was it just something that I made up for fun? I saw you, I saw you comin' back to me JEFFERSON AIRPLANE

My Dear Bob, it's now 2025, It's been a very long time since my last writing. I still think of you so often and the beautiful relationship we had. The Laughter, the joy, all the many friends we had. Always doing things together and with others. After your death all of our friends also passed away one by one over the next ten years. All gone, every single one. It's shocking that I'm still here and in good health for a 73 year old. My great joy over these past years has been my dogs, Mikey, Joshy and Stevie. As each one passed away, I asked his spirit to help in my search for another. Mikey found Joshy for me and we had 15 wonderful years together, I had 10 years with Mikey. Then I asked both of my previous babies to help find what will be my last doggie. That's Stevie. Oh my God, did they come through.I've only had him a month and I'm just crazy in love with him. 8 months old and Jack Russell and Brussels Griffon mix. I miss you everyday, and you must hear me talk to you a lot. Love Steve