Belk, James Jim Boone

I cannot believe that you have been gone for more than 30 years, because I see you in my dreams so frequently. I hear your southern sarcasm and recall your brutal honesty which keeps me focused on being a better person every day. I didn't appreciate your biting personality when you were here, but you know that I appreciate it now. I'm sure you are shocked by the foolish things I have done to ease my pain following your departure from this world. I killed myself twice, I did enough drugs and alcohol to destroy a small country, and I ruined so many of the friendships I had with people who genuinely cared about me because I didn't think I deserved their love since I neglected the love you freely gave to me, but I know that you are bearing witness to how God has seen fit to forgive me and guide me to living a more righteous and fulfilling life. Relationships suck, but when the right relationship is gone and you have nothing but reflections, it all starts to make sense. No one will ever take your place my sweet Jim though I'm happy to say many have tried and I, unfortunately, left them broken-hearted. There is no other man for me because there will never be another man like you and I am finally content with that. The pain of your passing has subsided and transformed itself into anticipation of seeing you again when I come home. I know my mom is taking good care of you up there and probably cooking up a storm and forcing you to eat-don't argue with her, just do what she tells you to do, it will make life so much easier for you lol. I miss you so much, James Boone Belk...I love you even more now than the day we first met, always nicky!